I’m one of those people who wants to fix everything. But sometimes, I can’t fix anything. Today is one of those days.
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When You Can’t Fix Coronavirus
Day 10 of COVID quarantine, and I need to fix my worn-out attitude. Normally, I bop along with a pretty even temperament. But COVID sapped my physical strength and drug my emotional endurance down along with it.
Uncertainties seem more uncertain. Will we have to close the school for two weeks and send all the kids home? Should we ditch our plan to have a spring vacation and just power through for another super semester? How many staff members have colds and not COVID? Do the kids who say they have symptoms actually have real symptoms, or just imagined ones?
I wake up feeling fine each morning and try to get back into my regular routine of exercise. But by lunchtime, I fall into bed exhausted. By 7:30 at night I can’t keep my eyes open. This physical exhaustion makes every. little. thing. seem like a big deal.
My tolerance for changes turns up intolerant. I struggled to finish a book and then I struggled to write a kind book review. The main character seemed narcissistic and whiney. When I finished, I felt like an exhausted therapist.
Maybe COVID has brought out nine months of uncertainties and paraded each one through my subconscious over and over again. Twenty-twenty was not an easy year. Not for economic reasons, but more for relational revelations.
How can I fix my worn-out attitude and regain my equilibrium?
The Only True Fix
I only know of one way. If I fix my eyes on Jesus, the pioneer, and perfector of my faith (Hebrews 12:2), my worn-out attitude will start to look pathetic and narcissistic. Things that seemed impossible and made me whiney ten minutes ago take on a different cast when I fix my eyes on Jesus.
I find comfort knowing he has promised me the strength to accomplish the seemingly impossible. God promises to give strength to the weary and power to the weak (Isaiah 40:29). If I fix my mind on Jesus and not on the impossibilities and my human limitations, my worn-out attitude starts to matter less.
Fixing my eyes on Jesus takes an act of faith. A choice to remain calm and let Jesus carry on. An admission that I can’t fix my own problems in any other way than fixing my eyes on the One who can.I have to admit I can't fix my own problems and fix my eyes on the One who can. #fmfparty #faith Click To Tweet